My martyrdom on the altar of Creative Writing

Hi,

I've been writing for about 3 years and lately (since about 6 months ago), or even earlier when my Dog Duke disappeared from my house, there have been veiled and unseen threats to my life whenever I published a new book, or even wrote a new chapter in a new book.

This has become so very saddening to my Husband, Colin Firth.  He too, has been made to suffer for being with Me in my Life. 

It's been so sad whenever I attempt to write a new chapter that I hear many people start mumbling their complaints about me, that I should be muzzled, or I ought to be put in place.  They first said that being Asian I ought not to be good at writing.  That can be refuted, many Asian writers are good writing in the English language.  Do you remember that Kazuo Ishiguro author, who had received a huge literary award some years ago?  He's Japanese but he has been recognized in his craft as a writer.

Then they said that I was no good, but that was due to trash talkers who feared me for they were made to think and act against me, thwarting me at every turn. 

So each time I do write something it's a good day.  But the next day I get sad and feel depressed.  I now feel that I understand what drove some writers to take their own lives. 

Fear not, I won't take my own life but my therapist knows I've been getting these negative thoughts to rain down on me.  He encourages me to leave town every once in a while.  But then the highway we take to Indianapolis (from my home in West Lafayette) is full of huge semitrailers, and other SUVs that seem to have Hell on their minds and make me feel terrified.  Once I even saw a semi-tanker try to run us off the road.  It was hairy.

So what can You do?  I suggest You pray for me to keep safe.  Why should anyone pray for me because I'm not anyone, you ask.  You must understand that I am a Voice in the wilderness they call the World.  If I and other Voices like Mine are muted or even shut down, this world will be chaotic, and that's to say the least.

I don't want to sound threatening, but this is what those who hate me do - they threaten my life and I awake every morning feeling as though some bad ghost is waiting for me in the kitchen where I take my breakfast.  This 'ghostly presences' are all negative ionic stuff that are made to make me terrified.

Why don't you think about this blog post.

#keepMarysafe